Remembering Who You Are Beneath the Programming

Lately, I’ve been embracing a deeper exploration of what it means to be human. To truly experience both the infinite, whole, and perfect nature of who I am—some might call it the soul—and the part of me that has been shaped by fear, lack, and limitation. And I’m finding more ease in it.

I used to resist the parts of me that didn’t feel “good enough.” I believed they were flaws that needed fixing. But now, I remind myself:

There’s nothing wrong with me. I am OK. I am enough.

And when those fragmented parts of me resurface—the ones that felt out of place, uncertain, unworthy—I sit with them. I ask:

Is this really true?

The Illusion of Not Knowing

I think back to four-year-old me, sitting in preschool, feeling completely lost. It seemed like all the other children knew what to do, and I didn’t. My mind latched onto that thought—everyone knows I don’t know—and fear took over. That fear didn’t just live in my mind; it shaped my entire experience, making it nearly impossible to absorb what was being taught.

But was that fear really mine?

Was it something I carried epigenetically, passed down through generations? Was it simply the result of childhood conditioning? Or, from an even higher perspective, was it an experience my soul planted for me to grow through?

Whatever the origin, the belief—I don’t know, and that means something is wrong with me—became a theme. It shaped how I showed up in classrooms, how I hesitated to speak, how I interacted with others, how I saw myself. It became an identity, one that reinforced a deep sense of inadequacy.

The Collective Experience of “Not Enough”

And I know I’m not alone in this.

To some degree, we all live with feelings of not good enough or not OK. These programs are primal—they were necessary for survival in an earlier stage of human evolution. But now, we are shifting. We are evolving beyond survival-based programming and into something new.

I believe we are witnessing—and participating in—the transition into a more liberated way of being. A movement toward living from the truth of who we are, rather than from the conditioned fears of who we were told to be.

What if we no longer need to rely on these old fear-based programs? What if we are moving toward a way of being that is more heart-centered, intuitive, even telepathic? A state where we communicate, not from the mind’s fear of not knowing, but from the soul’s deep knowing?

Integrating, Not Resisting

For now, I am simply stepping into the experience of integration.

I’m not trying to fight the part of me that feels sad or inadequate. Instead, I’m embracing it, holding it, reminding it—

You are OK. You are enough. There is nothing wrong with you.

Because this is the paradox of being human: We are infinite beings, whole and complete, and at the same time, we are here, experiencing the journey of remembering that truth.

And when I allow myself to embrace that paradox, I find peace.

by Michelle Kellar